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as small as that voice is, I'm starting to listen
That's clear from your posting. If it wasn't, I'd have tried to make the case more gently. But it was obvious you needed to reminded of something you already knew rather than convinced of something you don't!
At some point, you'll notice something astounding: nothing needs to change. Nothing needs to adjust in the whole universe. The only problem in any of this is the erroneous (and tenacious) conviction that stuff needs to change and be adjusted. That's the point of my poem, which I linked to above. It's a question of perspective.
And it's absolutely hilarious to think that one can change and adjust one's way to that awareness. (It's one of the cosmic jokes, and smart yogis never quite get those jokes - which is why I strive to keep feeling stupid...a stance which experience keeps proving correct.)
As for dropping practices: AYP strips away tons of complication, leaving practitioners with three stripped-down, ultra-simple, plain-as-daylight instructions that are all that's needed to work one's sadhana:
1. don't stop practicing,
2. let the experiences be,
3. if you run into trouble, scale back.
And the funny thing is, even this seems devilishly hard for most people to handle. About 75% of the postings in this forum involve people needing to be told not to quit, or to let experiences be, or to self-pace. It's like we read those instructions (repeated ad infinitum in the lessons) and don't believe we need to actually apply them.
Hey, quit if you want. It's your choice. My suggestion, if you're doing AYP, is that you follow AYP and scale back. If you've scaled back and it's still not enough, scale back some more. And more. And more, if necessary. But don't quit. Don't ever quit.
As for herbs specifically, my suggestion is that you don't self-prescribe, and don't take what other people take. The herbs were a very small part of what I suggested. The largest part of what I suggested was for you to stop fiddling and fretting (all this compulsive attention on your overload is causing overload). This is another instruction you clearly understand yet seem reluctant to implement.