Hi solo and all others who have given their time and answers! Thank you! This topic really has gotten me into some self-inquiry...
Katrine
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there is an undercurrent of...a pattern of expectation. As if the setting you are describing above ..is geared towards making love....that creates a fear of "failure in relationship"....when this is cannot be met
Hm... the first part of this we have been discussing many times by now... the attraction to make physical love between man and woman - is it an expectation of the mind or a deeper evolutionary pull? We have slightly different ways of expressing what that is about. It's true there is a deep inner longing of some kind to "close the cirquit" as I express it. I admit the interpretation of that longing is based on Bernie's insights, which I have found to be very true so far. Even realized persons are usually still attracted to a partner, whether they choose to go celibate or not, the attraction is there. Yogani mentions it in his tantra book, woman is here to draw the seed out of the man and even the most skilled yogi will feel that attraction. That attraction is very deep, I think. How to distinguish that deeper longing from the mind's sexual desire? Don't know. I just know my longing for "normal sex" has been gone for many years now. (Having travelled the journey through
- lots of experimental sex before awakening to spirituality
- on awakening beginning with quite advanced energetic tantric practices - having actual orgasms and "wild sex" on inner connection with the man even on longer distances
- to being a buzzing field reacting with this "awareness field lovemaking" to any man on the street having the right frequency
- to starting to sense the difference between sharing that field of "general love" with someone to actually feeling the attraction pull towards a particular man who is "calling me" into something that has a greater potential of union in Oneness...)
The other part of it, that the relationship depends on that lovemaking to occur otherwise it would be a failure. I don't believe that is true, no... but I'm questioning if I'm still in any rush to end going the whole way...? Impatience is one of my known traits. Would I be able to, as in Yogani's novel, wait for 7 years to finally get there? Perhaps there is impatience here that I'm not fully aware of. I'll keep looking into that one! Thanks!
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So....if source is saying "no" to that kind of stimulation right now for you...then it probably has to do with the need for balance. The need to ground yourself. The need to cultivate silence....more than conductivity.
This is the interpretation that lies closest to my own.
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Then again, it's a bit weird here, because... I wouldn't know how to cultivate silence WITHOUT having more energies coming with it, you see... Meditation on I AM brings up both here... Self-inquiry brings up both... Mindfulness and practicing short moments of awareness gets my nose burning... haha
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How do you cultivate stillness without energies? I wouldn't even know how to do it the other way round either - cultivate energies without stillness, because tantric energies does not occur without stillness here... It takes place due to going more and more still and less and less mindy... I honestly don't understand how others manage... So your next suggestion is a bit difficult:
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If you are with a man with a mature level of inner silence, can you not be open with him regarding this? When the first pull happens....have you tried being absolutely still with it?.....To sit with it and not react with a "going into the motions of making love"...(physically or otherwise)?
Of course there's always an open communication about this. Hey, I'm a teacher... can't stop!
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I'm not sure I understand what you mean with 'motions of making love'. Energetically the love is already happening all over the place - it is what is - and the physical motion is so far only getting close to each other and hug and kiss. There's yet no intention of getting to bed... I can try to be still with it, inside and outside, but... the stiller I get, the more I'm prone to be helplessly swooshed around by 'something' (yes, it has crossed my mind that it would be something else than Da Force - an entity, an alien, a master, Bernie messing around, but hopefully it is THAT
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). This latest time it pulled me back with force. It's like this master in the video below - he is just playing around with people - in a similar way it feels the invisible Force is playing around with this body like that... more so the stiller I get, the more I actively surrender. It's a mystery.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S6KxA6H4aUg quote:
If the attraction between you two is springing from inner silence...then to commune for days(or weeks and months even) and not make love...is something to look into.
Yes, I'd love that. But a man triggering me so much would only be able to commune with me in physical appearance without making love (which seems to be impossible anyway) one or two days every third week or once a month... else I'd be in severe overload. That was the thoughts I expressed in my first post... would take a man of great love to be patient with that... I definitely think it's time for me to go celibate and not even thinking of getting close to a man until this has settled. LOL!
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Christi, thanks for sharing. I think I would flip severely around you as well!
Etherfish,
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When i was younger I used to spend a lot of time with girlfriends holding and kissing with all clothes on, for weeks before there was any sex. I liked that a lot better.
Maybe if you found a tantric guy who would agree to that it would work.
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Yes, thank you, that would absolutely be the way to go. Hey, am I not the one here on forum that has promoted karezza in every single post about lovemaking and is constantly referring to
www.reuniting.info
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It's from that platform I'm already coming.
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So that's why it's very interesting to even more deeply inquire if there's any hasty rush or impatience in me that is playing out now, or if it's perhaps purely a matter of self-pacing as Anthem points out.
Cosmic
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This is wonderful news, isn't it? I mean, all the "wrong" guys are automatically weeded out, right?
Haha, that's a great way of seeing it! Thanks for a wonderful post!
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I do believe you might be right!
Christiane
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She's an international renowned spiritual figure especially in the arab countries..
I won't go into details concerning this "merging" with her energies, but all I can say is that, for the first time, I experienced the very thing I was always longing for through all my sexual relationships: I experienced the state of no mind, wholeness, ecstasy, and non-duality, only through meditating next to her, with her hand lying on my thigh..
And since last week, years of my old attachment to "lovemaking" as a "must" or a "natural mean" to reach ecstasy and wholeness simply faded away..
Thank you so much for sharing! It's beautiful! I do agree with you, lovemaking is not the only way to reach higher realms. It's one way. Being with a master as you describe is another very quick way!
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Now, that's one of the reasons I go to retreats with Bernie... it's weeks of being there... and it stays for weeks or months afterwards... Meditation is another way... AYP brings us there as well...
Hey, all! Thank you very much and much love to all of you! More input is very welcome! I sincerely appreciate you being here to support the journey!