Hi friends,
I've been practicing AYP twice daily for nearly 4 and half years now, mainly SBP+DM+Samyama. I'd like to check with you my recent experience, any input is welcome.
1. About a few weeks back, during meditation I had a very tangible cool current (yes a bit like snake, just didn't meander) appeared from Manipura going up, then disappeared before reaching the heart chakra.
2.A week ago, I read Yogananda's Kriya lessons. It didn't change my SBP (they are basically the same, but SBP is more streamlined and "modern"), but just somehow heightened my performance of it, and its enhancements. after one day or so, I started to feel big ecstatic waves in my head, especially the top back of my head; felt warm energy moving in my 2nd and 3rd chakras. In resting period, my legs also felt ecstatic energy, and moved automatically with it.
3. For the past few days, there've been various forms of vasanas being stimulated, including age-old attachment to VIP figures in my life, to money, and a sudden increase (purely) sexual attraction s, the mind's habit of hesitating appeared too, old songs and new kept playing, and sometimes I just felt it's just not smooth, it's just not right. Fortunately I could feel a little bit of silent screen behind, but still all these together is not enjoyable at all.
4. I've cut back my practice by half. From 8+20+5 to 3+15 only (took off samyama). The ecstatic waves reduced, but head/bindu sensations is still here almost during all my waking time. In my resting time, still felt drawn to a hole at top of my head. I tried to focus on my feet to counteract it.
My questions are:
1.Are these vasanas results of purifying the bindu chakra? It looks like form the location.
2.Should I be with these vasanas, doing self-inquiry on them, or using samyama to release them, or will these further overload me?
3. Should I just stop trying to manage this situation, and just surrender? I know I'm still "waiting" for it to pass, or trying to get rid of it soon.
I've been doing grounding activities, too.
Any advice, suggestion, sharing of your experience is appreciated!
Thanks!
Phil