Over the years, I tried various methods of meditations and yoga practices including AYP. I could not continue the practice steadily for multiple reasons. The main reason being, the over sensitivity stated on one of the AYP lessons. Self pacing, changing methods, cutting down, etc. did not help much. Meditation only increased my irritability, anger, depression and restlessness. This seems strange because meditation is prescribed by some teachers and those who sell meditation techniques in mass scales as "secret mantras!" (like Transcendental Meditation, Art Of Living, Deepak Chopra) as a cure for restlessness, irritability, anger, depression etc.
After reading some other books on this topic and generally about meditation and advanced yogic practices, I began to wonder whether everyone is ready to Meditate. I know that AYP is started on the premise that meditation is the best way to start for those who want to progress spiritually. At least this is my understanding.
I see many other traditional teachers (Like B.K.S. Iyengar, Satguru Sivaya Subramuniya Swami, Sri Chandrasekarendra Saraswati - Renowned late Sankaracharya of Kanchi peetham) insisting that a lot of ground work through karma yoga (service without any expectation or result), bhakti yoga, yamas, niyamas and other qualifications are needed before proceeding to Meditation. It has been said by many traditional teachers that without proper preparation, entering into meditation can not only bear no fruits, on the other hand it can be harmful. We can even see that Patanjali the author of yoga sutras has specified many qualifications to enter meditation.
Satguru Sivaya Subramuniyaswami explains this very well on his book , "Merging with Shiva", Chapter 23. Following is the quote from the book and here is the link for that page,
http://www.himalayanacademy.com/taka/past/2003/August/August_15_2003/transcript.html(Many of their resources and books are free online in their site
http://www.himalayanacademy.com)
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--By Satguru Sivaya Subramuniya Swami on "Merging with Shiva" chapter 23, "...Therefore, a good character expressed day by day within the individual who is freed from anger and from contentious mental arguments is a central foundation for the practice of yoga.
One without such purity should not practice japa yoga lest he awaken the knowledge of his imperfections which are better to keep veiled. For knowing such could send him into states of remorse, early repentance -- which means being penitent before one has the stability to take on the reaction of such a momentous discovery and undertaking. To meditate, one must be free from anger, jealousy and contention. Karma yoga should be practiced by the devotee prior to this to smooth out all character flaws. Sivathondu -- which is another word for karma yoga -- service to Siva, is the platform for japa yoga.
Those who are victims to episodes of anger, to pangs of jealousy or to periods of fear should not meditate and should not perform japa. They should perform Sivathondu, attend group meditations and group pranayama sessions. This is because they must first be lifted up into the muladhara chakra and above. They are living below it and must raise their consciousness in order to proceed deeply into themselves. It is the group itself in this case that will lift the individual who cannot easily lift himself. This process should be guided by a strong-minded, compassionate moderator......
.....There are two classes of mantras, not powerful and powerful, meaning potentially dangerous. The only danger that a powerful mantra could have is opening a person to himself. The problem is not with the mantra, but with what is inside the individual when the chakras open and he can see his karmas of the past and his impending karmas of the future. That's why a mantra is carefully given, like a medical prescription. You don't give two aspirins to a baby. You give a half of one, or a quarter. And just as a child's physical body takes years to grow up, so do the mind and emotions. If the early adult years are put into training and purification through karma yoga, bhakti yoga and study of Vedanta, then there are no troubles on the path to enlightenment. To turn on a light in a dark room with a flick of a switch is quite a shock to the darkness of the room itself. Would we want this to happen within the individual on the path? No. We want to turn up the dimmer very slowly so he or she can gradually adjust to the brightness that was there all the time."
The same thought is echoed by many other great teachers, especially the ones that do not sell meditation on a mass scale as "be all and cure all". On the other side we see organizations like the TM, "Art of Living", Deepak Chopra, Isha Yoga, Nithyananda, etc. etc. (Many are coming out each day) propagating meditation and advanced yoga as a "cure all" for everything. Some of these organizations are very aggressive in promoting their methods and even criticizing other paths and methods. They are run like any other multi-billion dollar business organizations and the chief gurus look like the CEOs to me. They are as ruthless as the CEOs of the business world in promoting their product and fighting with the competition in the market place. The difference is that the CEOs of business world does not want everyone to worship them, but these gurus do.
Coming back to the topic, my essential question is, are we all ready for meditation? Should meditation be the first practice for spiritual seekers of all levels? In my personal experience, I found out what Sivaya Subramuniya Swami has told to be the truth. I feel that I awakened and magnified the imperfections and this did send me to remorse, repentance, irritability, anger and many other problems.
From my own experiences and from reading the text quoted above by Sivaya Subramuniya Swami and many other great teachers, I feel that meditation can be harmful to many (the majority, how many have overcome anger?), if they are not properly prepared and did their ground work. This is just my opinion and I am a beginner and not an authority on yoga. But my personal experiences have proved the statements of the many traditional teachers to be true
verbatim. I feel that instead of progress, I have regressed over the years because of starting practices like meditation, kriya yoga, pranayamas, etc. without proper ground work before. I am clearly not ready for these.
I know that this might go against the belief of AYP, that it is most effective to start with meditation, for those who wants to progress spiritually. I know that it is not forced on anyone here. But it is advocated nevertheless.
In my case, I stopped all meditation, pranayamas and other advanced yoga practices. Now, I do physical exercises, moderate asana practice and karma yoga (serving others without any results or expectations whenever possible) for the past few months. This seems to be helping so far.
So, let me repeat my question. Should meditation be the initial practice for
all seekers who want to progress spiritually? Could it be possible that spiritual seekers are on different levels and many are not ready for meditation or advanced yoga practices. I know that when I am ready, I can come back here and all the things in AYP are going to be extremely valuable to me. On the other hand, is it wise to advocate a powerful meditation technique as a starting practice for all spiritual seekers on a open internet forum?
This post is not to criticize the methods of AYP. I have learned numerous things from AYP in the last 5 years. In fact, the knowledge that I am not ready for meditation and other advanced yogic practices came only from AYP and its forums. I have immense respect and gratitude for Yogani and the AYP community.
Since AYP is an open forum, I hope that we have the liberty to discuss this doubt of mine. I would love to hear the thoughts of fellow AYP yogis and from Yogani.
Here are some more thoughts from Satguru Sivaya Subramuniya Swami from on his book , "Merging with Shiva", Chapter 23 on people's desire to meeditate and about the Gurus who make their living by selling mantras:
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--By Satguru Sivaya Subramuniya Swami on "Merging with Shiva" chapter 23 "Many people want initiation because they want to get away from something. They want something to cure their ills. Others don't know what they want. They are disturbed, distraught with their prarabdha karmas, and they want relief. What they should be given is Saiva Siddhanta -- a comprehensive path of accomplishment. They should not be given a high-powered mantra that will, when it opens the mind, cause more frustration and disturbance from what the seeker sees. But once given such initiation -- having no tools, mentally, emotionally or physically, to conquer the past karmas that the experiential emotions are intensifying (which should have been conquered through karma yoga and bhakti yoga) -- the seeker falls into despair. It is the conscientious guru's responsibility to provide an on-going, progressive training prior to initiation and to continue it afterwards. Those who make their living by selling mantras would be considered fraudulent by traditional Hindu standards."
Okay, after questioning some of AYP's methods based on my personal experiences and the knowledge gained from the books written by some traditional teachers, I also need to point out that the virtues of AYP, like sharing/serving the community without any expectation of results, keeping the knowledge open to all, spreading the knowledge of all aspects of yoga, are extolled by many traditions.
Following are again the words of Satguru Sivaya Subramuniya Swami, which is in 100% alignment with the fundamental philosophy of AYP and the infamous words that Yogani repeats at the end of all his lessons,
"The guru is in you!".
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--By Satguru Sivaya Subramuniya Swami on "Merging with Shiva" chapter 10, "By learning to understand, we cease to be a personality leaning upon our fellow man and falling into disappointment when he lets us down. No, we must lean on no one but ourselves, our own spine, and not be the reactionary victims of the ups and downs of the world around us or the people around us. Then we will gain our freedom from the instinctive forces we were born into and attain sufficient emotional maturity to love and bless the world, no matter what our circumstances may be.""
Regards,
Ram.
Om Gam Ganapathaye Namaha
Om Sharavanabhava