Namaste Friends.....
Lately I have been having an increasingly difficult time with overstimulation. After some careful observation I am coming to the realization that it usually happens after eating. Not directly after as my metabolism isn't as fast as it was in the past, but instead about an hour after eating I am getting the feeling of excessive energy, especially in the stomach area and am having a difficult time finding ways of coping. The energy is so strong sometimes that I get to the verge of panic and really don't know what to do. At these times the only thing I know that will decrease the vibration is marijuana. And I hate resorting to that now that I have finally dropped my addiction to it. I have been prudently self-pacing for about a week (after about two days of going back to normal practices thinking my last round of self-pacing was over) and have been doing as little some days as 4 minutes of DM (2 mins twice daily) and that's it. I have also been quite irritable with my wife for no reason as of late, and I can't figure out if it's because I need to cut out more DM, or if I need to add more and I am lacking in silence right now. The excessive energy after eating makes me lean towards the "pace more" side, but I am conflicted. I have had to smoke pot a few times to deal with this, as I think I would have jumped off the roof had I not, but I would like to find other ways of dealing with this as smoking now often puts me into spontaneous meditation and that isn't helping me pace. So basically, anyone have any advice on how to deal with manic energy bursts caused by eating food (dense food as well, not just fruit and stuff) other then by smoking pot? Running, walking, pushups, jumping jacks, parcour, you name it, I'm doing it, but often this happens at work and I am limited as to what I can do here for grounding. Thanks in advance for any suggestions.
Love,
Carson[^]
P.S> I have also had an increased need for food in general which makes this worse. I am used to eating one meal a day, usually at about 5pm, sometimes I will eat an apple or something at noon, but not usually. This past two or three weeks I have probably eaten triple my normal amount because that is what my body has been asking for....I haven't been gaining weight though but have been getting more muscular (isn't intentional as I don't do much fitness stuff other then asanas and running/walking/golf).