Hi there
I am new to this forum and am hoping that someone can relate, teach or guide me in the right direction... I am hopeful to finally have some answers, and will try not to make this so long... please ask for more clarification if anybody is able to take a shot at this one
Age 4 - 12
Experienced freightening events, bifold doors feriously moving, chairs moving, photographs changing faces, only the top bed shaking on bunk beds...( My mother was scared- never tried to show it, made excuses, Deep catholic faith, church, saints, tell us children to pray, pray, we will be okay - My father thrived, he supposedly had "Special Powers")
Age 13 - 16
Perfectly quiet - normal life?? - we moved from NY to Florida
AGE 17
Dad gets sick w/ cancer, doctors give him 2 - 6 months to live. Talk about depressed. We lived the typical Italian NY family, mom straight from Italy, met Dad at 15, married at 19, she didnt drive, work etc. Prayers, Prayers, Prayers....
My boyfriends mom invited me to go with her to this "Tent Rivival" her church was hosting and had a special "GUY" ?? coming to heal people... I went... I cant remember even what this guy was saying except parts like, the power of God has been invested in me and I can heal... Who wants healing?? Come on up and save your life, your soul, from all the depression, anger...blah blah... I walked up to him, and asked if he could heal my father who was ill with cancer? He said yes.. I can heal your father through you, do you want me to? I said how can you? he said I can... I said ok.... He put his hand on top of my head for like less than 30 seconds, then I remember him saying; ok your father is healed! I couldnt believe it, I felt like he literally took the top part of my head off, I felt like I was going to pass out, and maybe stumbled because my boyfriends mother kinda acted like she was holding me or picking me up, but.. I was a crying fool - the weirdest cry - an attempt at an explaination of such a powerful feeling has no words.
Moving forward, I went home that nkight, told my parents, and they acted like nothing.... HERE WE GO NOW....
4 months go by I start noticing my lower body easily brusing, then my whole body... Off to the doctors, get blood drawn, next day while I am in school, I get called to the office to find my older sister there with my mom both crying, I thought my Dad died... (NO :+) My blood results came in, doctor said to take me straight to the hospital he was pretty sure I had Luekemia - my platlet count was 200. Normal is 100,000 - 400,000.. Doctor said, if I hit my head I would of died with internal bleeding... they tested me for everythikng, but nothing showed up... they were scratching their heads... gave me 6 bags of gamma globbin - dikd a bone marrow,k and it showed I was producing platlets... Put me on steroids & it somewhat controlled the counts...
6 Months after that I get into a serious car accident - which had laid me up for a total of 2 years, wheelchair, castings for 1 yr - walking brace for another year - the bleeding from my double compound fracture was out of control, my platlets dropped considerably again, doctors didnt know what to do, they thought my spleen was killing them - so out came my spleen - I was now 18
Married at 19 - Pregnant at 20
lost my baby - but not the normal miscarriage way - the baby was dead inside me, lost the heart beat
Pregnant again at 21 became extremely sick - I was 7 months pregnant with a sudden onset of severe toxemia Blood pressure 110/220 ( no joke)4+ protein in my urine - my liver was literally begining to burst, doctor said emergency sectkion - dont know if the baby is going to make it, but by law we have to try and save the mothers life. Baby made it "minor issues" - and is now a gorgeous smart as a whip 13 year old Princess. I didnt get to see her for 4 days I was in intensive care and they still didnt know which way my life was going to go... The doctors still use my story today - as the only person with such severe toxemia that made it
Age 22 - 28 OK health
Age 29 - 35 Major Headaches right in the center of my head - EKG showed abnormalities in subconcious brain waves that were not explainable
birthed 2 more children fine
after the birth of my 3rd child - weird stuff agian
face pain
behind my left knee major pains
curvature of the spine
abnormal blood results - white counts are 20,000 and no cancer
Yet now my platlets sre 560,000
ALL of the sudden I now to have hikgh blood pressure and I am currently not even working, so am not stressed out
Painic Attacks?? Felt like I was having a heart attack - my right arm felt like I had a rubber band around it hence I literally dropped to the floor and was paralyzed in bed for 2 days - meditation and prayer got me through that one
More recently - Fibromalgia - Lupus - Rosacea
Just found out the latest that my neck doesnt have the normal curvature that we all have and my C 5 - 6 & C6-7 discs are bulging and have formed spurs on the back of them causing some major daily tingling in both arms and fingers and feet and toes...
Finally.... My question.....
Can this be premature Kundalini Rising?
Is it multiple times of Kundalini rising? If it is stuck what do you do?
I swear I feel "Something" stuck in my back - at times I feel like I am on fire inside and walk around with low grade fevers often - I began a psychic development course thinking "My old friends" (Spirits) are pissed and trying to get my attention, but I have to 1st learn not to be scared...
my intuition is almost always acurate, I honesty feel other peoples emotions, which at times is so draining, but yet I dont sleep well at all, if I get 3 - 5 hours nightly thats good... I have been up for 3 days straight - then took the family to Disney?? I have been depressed - happy - busy busy cleanilng and rearranging my house for a year now,and my normal social self - has turned into a hermit and am avoiding and lost most my friends. I have been in search for inner peace for too long - It saddens me to admit that I DO NOT FEEL COMFORTABLE IN MY OWN SKIN.... If someone can please help you dont know what a great service you would be doing not just for me... I have 3 children and a husband who is trying so hard to stick by my side, but I can tell I have aged him
Thank You so Much