I was also with a woman who was my "soulmate", or, in Hebrew, my "bashert", literally, "intended for one another by God". We met when we were 15 years old, married when we were 22, and were together until her death from cancer when she was 54. You want attachment, pain, loss, grief? Try that one on for size. Not to diminish the feelings of anyone else, but this is what human life is about--the Buddha told us that we would suffer, and then, through our suffering, learn non-attachment and come to a cessation of suffering. The main point is that we are to utilize emotional pain as a lesson, an opportunity to evolve and grow spiritually. Otherwise, we have suffered without growth, wasting a great and valuable opportunity for spiritual evolution. That is the real shame, the real loss, suffering without cause or gain. We suffer in order to learn how not to suffer. My time of mourning for my wife was a time of tumultuous change--and the acceptance of those changes is what began to end my period of suffering. I eventually fell in love again, and had a difficult time resolving how to feel regarding my new love versus my loss. I asked the rabbi if one could have two "basherts" in one lifetime, if this was allowed by God, if it was possible or proper, or was I just on a misguided mission to replace my loss with someone new. I was assured that I WAS permitted to fall in love again, be happy, find a soulmate and be loved. Change is difficult, and resisting change causes suffering--we resist change because of our attachments, after all. A door closes. Look around for another door to open--then go through that door and greet what is on the other side...
Michael