Scattered thoughts...
I often stop and wonder, "what happens next?" because it always brings lovely surprises.
However, I sometimes perform my own version of affirmation-like samyama when I want to feel like I have some control, or when I think "Huey" has got it wrong again.
It often works quite well.
I tend to think that the extent our free will, is lessened the more we identify with what we have learned to call "everyday life"
The greater our identification, the greater our identity, the stronger our sense of control, yet the weaker our ability to manifest what we want.
Amusingly, we are most powerful when we have no identity, no control, and no desire to make anything happen at all. Fully potential.
The illusoriness of "everyday life" seems to depend on where I choose to hold my awareness. In the body, the feelings, the mind, or none of them.
The two most effective techniques for me in clarifying these matters, seem to be Meditation, and Investigation.
Particularly investigation of Beliefs, Expectations, and Conditionings and the discomfort they cause when they clash with real life.
Funny how Buddhists also talk of the need to develop concentration, and wisdom.
All of these things appear to be true, one way or another, but I take none of this seriously, because above all, I'm aware that I'm not seeing the full picture yet.
Namaste
