dear friends[
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last june i was seriously overloading ..at that time i was doing:
10 min SBP (with shambavi and mulabhanda)
20min DM
samyama
cosmic samyama
10 min relaxation
i stopped all practices for 3 weeks
early july i did the following:
5min SBP (with shambavi and mulabhanda)
10min DM
10 min final relaxation
i overloaded big time again ..i even had few panic attacks that i obeserved calmly happening in me (thanks to the witness[:X])
i stopped all practices again....now all the physical and psychological symptoms have totatlly disappeared
few days ago i started:
10 min breath meditation (as per lesson 367)
10 min final relaxation
....
i have few questions:
in lesson 367 Yogani says:
quote:
Those engaged in breath meditation may find a more comfortable path of additional practices leading through samyama, self-inquiry and karma yoga (service), which focus less directly on the cultivation of ecstatic conductivity (internal energy flow), and may be more manageable for practitioners who have inner energy sensitivity already present. These practices naturally expand the expression (movement) of inner silence in our life, and will bring the necessary ecstatic conductivity and radiance along with less risk of energy overloads. Samyama, self-inquiry and karma yoga are also excellent vehicles for surging bhakti, which over-sensitive meditators usually have an abundance of.
i feel this is my personal inclination..although i have done meditation for years and i was never the oversenstitive type , now it seems i have become the oversenstitive type[
] ...in ayp i always liked the meditation,samyama and enquiry parts more than the bhanda ,mudras and pranayama....
also for some time i feel i want to do more selfless service (i am currently translating ayp writtings...taking care of mum who is in an alzheimer hospital ...) so i think i am gona do some volontureeing in an NGO
i have few questions:
1.is breath meditation as effective as mantra meditation?
2.i was going through the nectar cycle...what will happen to this cycle now that i have stopped all energy practices like shambavi,mulabhnada and SBP...will cycle keep on happpening by itself or not?
3.how the ecstatic conducitivity will be developed? cause in fact we need both the iiner silence and ecstatic conductivity for enlightenement...
i really look forward to reaching a stable practice of 20 min of breath meditaton and add back again samayama which i miss very much[:I]...but it is wiser to take things slow..
all inputs will be appreciated[
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Love