My yoga practice has been broken for around 1 year but during that time and before I have had difficulty managing my practices and in developing good self pacing skills. Looking back my attempts to maintain a stable yoga practice were affected by symptoms of overload as well as external factors that often seemed to arise in conjunction with my overloads, but not always, sometimes I just found it hard to honor my practice because or unrelated things.
An example would be feeling pain sensations in my heart that would lead to the feeling of being saturated in a strong emotion, such as insecurity, fear or sometimes feeling really in love with people I see and heartbroken at the same time, even strangers. Even though these would be recognized as symptoms of practices and not acted on I often felt they were affecting my external environment especially the way others interacted with me, backing off practices would remedy my interpersonal relationships again.
Another aspect of dealing with overload is my tendency to experience fear , anxiety and fright when new overload sensations arise especially sensations in the head. This has lead into panic attack style symptoms that can be very uncomfortable. The sensations arent painful or anything either its just a tendancy my mind has when there is alot going on sensation/ energy wise. Mostly these have only resulted when I really am careless about how much I practice whilst the heart felt symptoms mentioned earlier seem to begin arising without much practice.
Overall though I am sensitive to all practices especially spinal breathing & mulabandha and I'm also not skilled at self pacing and getting a stable routine.
I am just kind of getting this off my chest because I have been thinking of taking up less aggressive practices but I would love any contributions from others.
