Hi innercall,
it was the same for me. I don't know how Yogani found out these mantras, but their effects are immense. The solution for me was awareness-based meditations like:
- staying aware of what is happening inside and outside the body inluding everything (like feelings, thoughts, sounds, visions) at the same time. When you drift off into thoughts, you come back to "being aware of everything at the same time", like the mantra procedure in AYP.
Pros: That one is so far the best working of all. Smooth, fast awareness grow, peace and nondual perception. Easy surrender and let go, fast realization of what you are not. You can meditate as long as you wish without much discomfort but steady awareness grow. You can rest in pure bliss awareness very easy.
(never thought I would rate meditation types =P)
"Cons": It takes time for good results, 20-60 mins. Increased no mind during the daytime can cause problems when the mind is needed (work, school). Fast silence grow can cause depression. Watching the dreams all night long feels strange, no unawareness during nights anymore.
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- being aware of your focus point/your awareness that changes out of itself. other formulation: watching the movement of your focuspoint/awareness. Example: You are aware of the screen, "next moment" you are aware of some itching in the body, then again aware of the screen. Watching/following this kind of "awarenessmovement".
Pros: Even smoother and easier. Surrender happens out of itself. Everything moves out of itself. The routing of the awarenessmovement is very playfull. Goes very deep till no mind, full awareness like the first one. Brings about the same results as the first one. Makes you aware of places you have never been aware of before (tensions in subsubsubmuscles, nerves etc =P). Is like spacetravel.
Cons: Takes even longer for good results 30-120 mins. Total surrender happens fast and can cause mind-conflicts. Defocusing/dissolution makes work/school-like stuff hard. The rest same as the first.
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Thats perhaps the most problem with these kind of meditations, the power of concentration on little things and mind-works get more and more lost. Fast pure bliss awareness vs. functioning in mental-based environements becomes the question. In this regard, mantra based meditation is much more stable. But at the same time, much more burning, much less silence and bliss because of much less meditation times.
I am very curious about Yogani's new "middlething". And would sign in for betatesting