Hi Lancinato and Nirmal
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Trying to *make* myself not attach to those thoughts made the attachment stronger.
Yes - thank you for this Lancinato. Am finding this to be true with all attachments. To thoughts, to feelings, to places, to human beings.......In trying to avoid attachment to them......I am operating through another thought scheme and so this is just another attachment. It takes me "out of what is" instead of further into it. I have never been able to escape life and its lessons......
....but I sure have tried hard sometimes
So.....even if it hurts.....and even if it might not be very wise seen from a ....."yamas and niyamas perspective" (whatever that might be in the language of Patanyali
)......I keep not avoiding......keep diving into life. Sometimes stupidly. But....as a very wise friend said to me recently when I complained about the stubbornness inside...and the Viking helmet on my head: "It is a loving helmet you have". Immediately....there was a drop further into heart...on hearing this.....
All is well....even though seemingly not.
So I might regret my...naivity..... when in pain....but even this regret can be embraced as it is....because somehow....in the long run.....love deepens still.
And when love deepens...it is my experience that attachments drop of themselves.
I can obviously only speak for myself....and maybe there is a faster way......but somehow.....in these shoes..... celebrating all of life....the pain as well as the joy.....is what makes the very moment of NOW worth living. It takes one out of the limited prespective that either one - content or context - is more important than the other. Both are life. One is source - and the other is expression. And they both exist simoultaneously....inseperable from each other.
And here......thanks to finding the AYP practices and integrating the principle of self-pacing.......content like anxiety and fear is allowed to stay until it leaves of its own accord.
All in the context of inner silence.
So I concur with Shanti when she says:
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Good things are happening, we just need a bit of self pacing and patience to get by the rough patches of purification.. but this will only lead to letting go the fears and opening up to the divine within.
All the best to you Nirmal