Hello everyone,
thankyou all for all the help you guys are providing specially at the time when I so depressed.
The depression and fear did get better for few days, and then it came again and got even worse than before. what started then was the dreams got more cruel with everyday asking me stop putting spices in food, don't talk with friends about girls and not to even look at girls, not to listen to movie songs, every dream with a person posing like a yogi or saint, sometimes with long hair , sometimes with tilak on their forehead etc, sometimes looking like one of the greatest guru of all times,
yes I followed everything after a couple of days I had dream someone told me "you are already blessed, you don't need to follow anything, stop following your dreams, the persons coming are not real gurus you are under a psychic attack."
I do hear voices when I am in a semi-sleep state and get these dreams when I am in sleep, no problem at the moment in the day time.
I don't actually now care about any dreams, visions or voices, and its been just a few days and I am actually mentally feeling much stronger, the dreams do still try to get me confused by different ways but as i don't follow my dreams anymore they are not having much effect on me.
(I would also like to mention here, I had few dreams for the last 2-3 nights different guys saying there are going to have a party and always showed me a guy with measles, in one dream a guy came up to me and directly said to me 'are you prone to measles', I am also being abused in semi-sleep state......and would also like to mention that when I looked over the internet measles is a disease caused by demons according to mythological stories of many countries..)
One other big problem is when I am in sleep state, there is lot of vibration in my body and brain and i feel like being thrown out around the room with great force and feel vibrations at the same time, from one wall to another and I normally wake up after all the beating by them, sometimes the body has very less energy or feels weak and sleepy all through the day, and I feel trapped in body whenever trying to wake up kind of state of paralysis, one day after the vibration I woke up all the day water was coming through one eye , I went to doctor and got medicine as he said it looks like some allergy, the watery eye is gone but that eye has gotten weak and now needs glasses.
Some of you might be a little skeptical even if I am going through a kundalini awakening or not, I would just say that one of the swami's I talked to in reality confirmed that I am going through kundalini.
Could anyone please help me? what to do.
kindest regards from my heart taking time to reply, its God sent at this time.