It's like there's this huge friendly wave coming to carry me... No signs of more overload yet. I continue walking a lot, exercise as much as I can, do some dirty work for others, particularly helping out more at work... and it's like... all the tension I had was due to an attempt to HOLD BACK this wave... because I was afraid it could burn me, afraid I could have no control over it. These last days after the release of the pressure have only been flow... involuntarily smiling, particularly when getting a glimpse of my face in a mirror. My eyes shine and the lips just form the biggest smile! Lots of 'magical' funny things happen... In short, there's a huge opening!
I remember Meg told me once that "the mindy, tough periods are when the real work is done - the flow afterwards is only the resting time, the reward" It seems to be something like that!
A lot more activity in the crown than before, and for the first time I have started to get glimpses of awareness during sleep! More visions and inner scenery whenever I close my eyes.
So far, so good. We'll see if this massive opening will bring more overload, or if it will stabilize and bring a more consistently centered stillness and simplicity and joy to my life. Very new to me to feel this inner joy, particularly when socializing with others, which normally is more of a duty than a pleasure to me! I get spontaneously happy over things I have never enjoyed before. At the moment negativity is far away.
PS: I suddenly got the gospel "Joshua fought the battle of Jericho" in my head...
Joshua fought the battle of Jericho,
Jericho, Jericho,
Joshua fought the battle of Jericho,
And the walls came tumblin' down.
You may talk about your kings of Gideon,
You may talk about your men of Saul,
There's none like good old Joshua
At the battle of Jericho.
Up to the walls of Jericho,
He marched with spear in hand.
"Go blow those ram horns",
Joshua cried,
"'Cause the battle is in my hand".
Then the lam'ram, sheep horns
Began to blow,
Trumpets began to sound,
Joshua commanded the children to shout,
And the walls came tumblin' down.
That morning
Joshua fought the battle of Jericho,
Jericho, Jericho,
Joshua fought the battle of Jericho,
And the walls came tumblin' down.