Ever since my first Kundalini symptoms several years ago, I've learned to accept that occasional unpleasant symptoms of purification are just part of the journey, or at least they seem to be to me. Since then I've never had any really long or intense crises, so perhaps I can count myself lucky, but I do occasionally develop fever and flu-like symptoms as a result of what might be "energy overload" (that is, I get aching and chills, often on a night after I've practice a lot, but usually going away by the next day, albeit not always, which seems to indicate to me that I was not really "sick," but just "kundalini sick").
However, sometimes it's gotten hard for me to tell whether I'm kundalini sick or just plain sick. Overall, my health has improved since starting AYP and I'd say I get sick and experience symptoms of illness less frequently. However, sometimes, like a few weeks ago, something that seemed to be a bout of "kundalini sickness" will last so long I wonder if I wasn't just "sick sick." For example, a few weeks ago, I developed a high fever and terrible diarrhea, the fever lasting about 2 days and the diarrhea almost a week. I took antibiotics and various stomach-calming remedies and it eventually went away. I decided I simply had a stomach flu of some kind.
But here I am, only a few weeks later, and I find myself experiencing an extreme fatigue coupled with an achy, feverish feeling similar to what I experienced before. Hopefully the diarrhea won't start up again. But am I just so unlucky this time that I'm sick again or am I experiencing some kind of "kundalini sickness"? It seems unlikely for me to get sick twice in such a short time frame, at least based on my usual health. I have experienced a lot ecstasy and sense of opening in my daily practices lately, despite the bouts of feeling awful in between, especially at night, which would seem to point more to simple opening and related "friction/purification" symptoms, but maybe I'm developing some other sort of unrelated problem like chronic fatigue or irritable bowel syndrome?
Anyway, I was just wondering if other people have struggled with this sort of problem--not knowing what's part of normal purification, what's abnormal and what may be unrelated illness, and what, if anything can be done to help. Thanks.
