It's a pretty complex thing as the universe is a massively complex thing.
Essentially my mind was not at that time a spiritual or God loving mind. The contents of my mind were made up of negative thoughts about God (I was a scientist very logical) but also there were voices which could represent my fractured personality (fragments of me) voices of lost spirits (Earth bound spirits roam looking for people with less protection - an aura that is less bright to possess and enjoy physical pleasure such as eating, sex, alcohol.) They also represent more negative things like demons from very large powerful ones which could not be repressed by me to small ones)
My mind itself was being attacked on all frontiers by negative forces and entities (psychic attack) I also has satanic energies in me which are akin to QI but very negative (representing lust or someother negative aspect)
When the body or nervous system is fully possessed by perhaps a thousand or more spiritual entities none of which had ethical reasons for being there it is very difficult. I notice that at that time I was extremely intelligent and the stories I told represented that but all of it was paranoid and delusional.
There is a latin word for what i've been through which came to me during my journey in a dream and it is lustorum whichis a 5 year expiation process (purification at the gross level)
IT's a pretty rough ride i admit but it is doable, just
On the whole the overall complexity of the process is controlled by God and if one is on any such journey as this one always has to bow down to the fact that he has all the power and controlls the outcome. But with prayer and great devotion to the goal in sight it is possible to persuade God and to learn the various strategies both proven and not. to strive forward into the unknown, with faith.
It's really the cutting edge of modern healing, i want to transfer it into my worldly pursuits. I actually want to become a counsellor but have some way to go.
I reccomend you look up spirit release therapy for greater insight into the world of auditory hallucination.
Also if your out there and your searching for healing don't try shamanism (IT's totally crazy)
I have nothing against shamanism it's just when on a shamanic journey you use your mind to wander to your power animal, thats safe but if you are being influneced by negative energies or entities you go to nasty places with loud voices and they do bad things (I've been there)
I must admit I've found metta meditation really usful in terms of provinding the compassion to love the schizophrenic me. It also breaks up the pain body (see echkhart tolle) and releases trapped emotions which enables me to shine (protection) and release trapped spirits)
It's just a case of indoctrinating yourself with divine love 24hrs a day
anymore info you let me know k
Joe
