Hi Luci!
It does make a difference that you are doing practices, I feel. Carson is a very pure channel of love and silence, but I can almost guarantee you he's not "doing something" to you. Your own openness is allowing you to feel this.
Katrine and my roommate at the retreat helped me realize this. At first I was blaming others for the wonderful things I experienced. Blamed Katrine for "making me present", blamed Carson for the infectious laughter that plagued me for 4 days, blamed my roommate for a beautiful experience we shared.
They pointed out how open and receptive I was, which I didn't see until they mentioned it.
In your case, you are probably receptive and your practices are opening you further. And Carson is right there beside you, radiating love
It was amazing to meet Carson this weekend. His compassion and love were beautiful to witness. The 3 of you are blessed to have each other.
My love to you and the family
Love
cosmic