Thanks Katrine
I cannot but be active those days anyway!
By active I don't necessarily mean "doing"..
Rather allowing the intensity to flow the way it likes..
And there was this thought yesterday that it was maybe a waste
to have that much energy and not doing anything useful about it!
This is the conditionning that Osho speaks about..
So when this thought came yesterday, I naturally thought - in response - 'why should I do anything? let's just laugh and enjoy this over-dose as it is... with all its 'tension'/urge sensations'.
I talked like I've never talked for 2 hours on a row with my father yesterday...
Yet I was not exhausted...it was not 'me' who was talking...
'I' was absent. At a moment, while talking, looking at my father - who was completely puzzled by the way - , I perceived his body as a 'form', an external form that has nothing to do with his true essence/being.. This may sound plain and we mentally know that we are not the body.
But it was a direct perception.. hard to put into words, but I guess you got easily what I'm trying to say..
Like a 'new vision', through forms, beyond the physical perception of the eyes.And if I had to locate this perception, maybe it was felt around the heart chakra.. as if the "eyes" were seeing from there.
To be continued!