Hi Carson
Thanks for this....loving perspective
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I think that with a stable set of spiritual practices, and the "right" mindset, everything unfolds exactly as it "should". Basically I see it as "stepping out of the driver's seat" in regards to our personal unfolding and letting the process take over. Understanding this is tempering the bhakti here and allowing me to relax a little as I can occassionally find myself a little "over-zealous" with the desire to evolve faster. Now I see that too evolve faster would not only hinder progress, but could actually stunt it and even reverse it
Yes.....it is certainly the experience here that the desire to evolve faster is in itself like every other desire.....it needs to dissolve into silence. Since it is at odds with what already is. It is a judgement of what is taking place....to desire to evolve faster...or differently.....is always in relation to an idea of how it should be. And believing it and acting on it.... always brings suffering here.......
I learn from many different people and many different situations this way.
The desire.....and the love......I am not sure if I am wording this accurately.....since I am in the middle of it...at the same time as I am watching it....but here it is felt that when the heart opens more and more.....the love.....it has changed from being overwhelming when the desire is mixed in it....to gradually being more and more peaceful....at the same time as it is more and more encompassing . More and more it quiets the mind and calms the heart.....and the desire transforms into devotion....The wanting (for faster evolving or anything else)...if it is allowed fully....yet not acted on from the wanting itself.....it is also embraced fully....and now comes the difficulty of expressing....but something happens with the devotion in the middle of this........
It is a feeling of....rather staying somewhat unenlightened (whatever that is judged to be) and being allowed to be two....so that the sacredness can be....bowed to. That the devotion....the love for.... it/God....that it is possible to simply just love it/Himher.... and not mind the rest.....Like you say..it is already happening.
That "loving it"...is not overwhelming. It is very very quiet.....and I never knew that love could be like this. It is a sweetness inside.....and i hope that talking about it won't.....that it won't disturb it.....
And after so many times of pushing myself into openings.....whether it was divorcing before it actually happened of itself....or moving before it happened of itself...or resigning before it happened of itself......all that struggle that hurt so much....it is seen that even though it was not necessary to hurt this way.....it was in a way necessary so long as the stubbornness is in place. And this happens everytime around.....yet more and more sweetness seeps through. So even the "pushing" is transformed by the love into something that is fuel for the greater transparancy to happen. In other words...it is always the love that is in the driver seat.....or rather...
is the driver seat.....it just is not seen...and therefor not felt...when drowned in the wanting....
Letting the process take over......I don't know....and never knew....how to do this. I am always coming back to this fact of not knowing.....And in resigning that job......somehow something is taken......and this sweetness happens instead....
So yes Carson....I wholeheartedly agree not to push yourself. I am so daft sometimes....and have payed dearly for it.....so heed your own inner guru and stay cool......warmly[
] And enjoy along the way
PS. just like your baby