Christi
I thank you so much, I am grateful and honored that you replied to my post. You have given me the courage to listen to that "little voice" within - it's usually correct, however at times, when it comes to a personal issue I allow my corrupted human mind to win and I second guess myself or am in need of proof.
You really touched home when you spoke of healing myself of cancer; because everytime my counts went balistic and my regular MD would have me go to a CA specialist - obviously it would sadden me somewhat - but when I looked at my supportive husband and 3 loving children - it was like the weird feeling would come over me - almost like an angered rage but yet positive and powerful? Its hard to describe a feeling or experience, but it reminded me when my Dad had gotten sick and how quickly my then 12 year old brother and I grew up we both went out to work to support the family as mom took in children to watch, I took over any driving the family needed as mom doesnt drive - and my relationship changed so drastically with my mom like our roles reversed and our youth was put aside. Anyway, I would go lay down cry it all out - meditate - pray until I felt my heart coming out to console me and I would demand that the tests would be negative and in the event that a positive reading was found that I wouldnt accept the invitation and let it in.... So I have wonder about self healing as well - or if it is some sort of test some of us must go through at times??
I will follow and read your grounding advice - Again I thank You
Live With Passion
Nancy